Heartbreak

My heart is still breaking my child my only child.  I can't save you. Omg

https://youtu.be/5anLPw0Efmo

my bedroom is a Faraday Cage... I would be posting nightly...however the chickenwire in the ceiling won't allow it...so I shall type and send in the morning...

tomorrow is our 26th wedding anniversary...wow...quite an accomplishment..

to be frank we had a it of a bloodletting tonight...probably better to get it out of the way for tomorrow. after 26 years....some stuff has to be said....we did..I believe we are better for it..we shall see

I posted that I lost my voice....but I haven't really.. I post regularly on Facebook...I like the short synopsis of a thought or feeling...however it really doesn't give me the-satisfaction of a blog post.

ahhhhhhh  the freedom....I want to thank those of you who by some happen chance came upon my latest blog entry...I am humbled that you even saw/read it
and
took the time to comment after all this time...you are amazing people and I love you

I'd (sadly) forgotten how much your feedback means to me...and frankly what you mean to me....I'm sorry...and thank you from the bottom of my heart

i'm back in a humble way  HUGS!!!

may 30 2014

its been too long...I miss my blog..although i am having difficulty expressing myself...wow  too much to talk about...but maybe enough to blog about...we shall see....love to all that read this..I miss you...I want to cry because I lost myself......and want to come back...sigh

When I was a small child..I heard a message...a confusing message of family..of they way things ought to be..of love...and of peace....when I was 9 years old, I heard it more loudly..it was about peace...and love... as a young teenager during the Viet Nam War..It screamed at me  PEACE, LOVE... END THE WAR........the cry was from the peace niks...the Christians, the liberals and the hippies...the cry of peace and love.  It came from my parents and their friends who belonged to the Unitarian Church in Montclair NJ...Some of those folks were former Jews who...were survivors of concentration camps who still bared the tatoos of the camps...some were former Catholics..who lost their way with all the rules and regulations..and some ...from the Unitarian church who taught us that all peope were equal, no matter what their faith, their color or their creed...we learned about everyone...but mostly we learned about peace..and love....

.One of my fondest memories was from the late 60's...my Dad..a former Catholic...and a Sunday school teacher as well as a member of the church board, proposed that the church might sing as one of the  hymns...the Burt Bacarach/Dionne Warwick hit...What The World Needs Now..is Love Sweet Love..his words were..."this is what its about now..." truer words were never spoken..and they still ring true today...we sang it..and I have never forgotten that Sunday in Church..I thought we were probably the coolest church in town....I think we were...

I'm weary of debating where the world should be today..the laws..the rights...I feel we have lost out way..its really quite simple...

its about love..it always has been..and if we can get back there..then we will be ok....I love you

Amazing

Put a post out there after too much time and got a comment from one of my earliest blog friends...thanks you S for  commenting HUGS my friend

The sun is almost set here in So Fla...the weather is amazing and I am feeling pretty mellow.  Had some wine.

I was thrilled to see that m.y friend S commented and he is still some what active here...I've forgotten how cathartic this can be...feeling pretty happy about it on this mild south Florida evening. HUGS

It's been a long long long time

Has it ever....been thinking about old friends and what this blog meant to me when I started it.  I am reminded today of the start of the Iraq war 10 years ago and the conversations I had with fellow bloggers back then. And the on going banter that ensued.  I am feeling nostalgic...god not for the war but. The connections I made here. I still have friendships with some. And some are gone. And lord knows I have changed..but if you are a blogger pal and you happen to read this...know that I still think about you all from time to time and I am fond of the memories that we shared in this medium....you all got me through some tough times...and I am happy today that life is good. I am good although older and I hope wiser..  Hoping all is well with you all in blogger land. HUGS...Leelee

Still here...just not here..

HUGS!!